Time For Change

I have been doing a lot of soul searching as of late.  I am not sure what really started it.  Maybe it was feeling overwhelmed, the demands of finishing this review, that giveaway or just trying to keep up with the other mom bloggers.  While I was gone to Mexico on my mission trip we were challenged to “walk the wall” which is literally taking a prayer walk around the wall that surrounds the orphanage property.  It is a thing that I think really likely made a huge change for me.  Why would walking around a wall change things?  Well it gave me time to reflect on how I am living.  You seriously think about these things when you see poverty first hand and not in a magazine or on a website.  I definately took my opportunity to pray but no I didn’t hear any loud voice booming a direction in which I should go.  Let me share a few pictures of my experience “walking the wall”.

However, since I have been home I have really been attempting to get things in order and trying to find the meaning in the life I already have.  I tend to really be someone who keeps to myself with a couple of exceptions.  While I am perfectly okay with keeping to myself, I really want to get my blog back to a real place.  I want you, my fantastic readers, to know it is okay to be chaotic for a day, a week or a month as life hands us seasons where just surviving is all we can manage.  I have had those seasons but it is really my time for change.  I want to get back to posting about my everyday life. 

You will still see some reviews and a few giveaways but I want to do them for me not because I need to see numbers of visitors that are huge.  Seriously, are any of them reading my content or is it just a greed fest.  We live in a society that tells us buy this, get that and you will feel important.  I have things I enjoy like all of you but what I really enjoy is being me without a sheet of marketing always on my front page.  It is back to the real me, in my yoga pants, without my makeup just living my not so ordinary life.  I hope to continue to see your comments and would love your suggestions as I share with you life in My Red Apron.